Monday, July 07, 2008
havent been blogging for a long time...
i trained yesterday, but the position is just.... i dunno why it keeps changing!!! stopped quite a few times yesterday, i just couldn't continue.. the right feeling in the past is just not there. and i shot crap too... then later i decided to change my position, shifted my elbow to my hipbone... at least the gun doesn't shake but i still keep changing my position -.- and yesterday i shot without shoes... it's like dunno how many years i have shot without shoes ever since i bought my own suit...
so far our school has been doing really really well... it's like we never had national individual awards, and yet this year we have 2!!! that's really great... seriously hope that i can do well...
yesterday i asked to see the booking, then i saw there were still lanes at 2pm.. then i tot aiya no time, got school till 1.45pm.. so i returned the folder without booking... then this morning i woke up, OH YA TODAY IS YOUTH DAY NO SCHOOL!!! stupid i should have booked lanes... decided to go there and hope that there's still lanes.. and later go to sot to try to change my lesson time... tomorrow hav to go the boarding school programme and wed is nationals!!!! dunno why everytime i think of the word "nationals", my heart starts thumping thumping thumping... i guess it's still the aftereffects of last year -.- i wasn't so scared of nationals when i was in sec 2 and sec 3??? sec 2 i underperformed but we still got nationals 3rd.. sec 3 i performed, but we din get into east zone... sec 4 i couldn't even participate... this year i got a lot of pressure, cos i'm the only one with shooting experience while the other 2 are newbies... and now they are shooting better than me..... it's really sad la....... but it can oso mean my pressure is reduced... but the prob is the fact that i'm not shooting well, is not due to my pressure... it's due to the position!
and i really really don't like it when coaches come to me saying "you are lousy, lousy until there's no way you can be lousier.. so the only way for u is to improve." i really reaLLY REALLY don't like this. i have made up my mind.
you will be f.i.r.e.d
i shall change back to my original position when nationals are over... i must get back to the original standard.. jiayou!
loves; 11:15:00 AM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
i din mention right? i got sec 1 score for nusis. wow. these few competitions have been shooting the same score. my sec 1 score. i get really stressed up and jealous when i see the other two girls shooting so well... they are like improving tremendously??? always try to console myself that i could do even better than them when i shot abt the same length as them, moreover, i din have good suits and good guns to use like them... my coach din have a good system of training either! but no point.. i'm still losing out? today coach haw came to coach me... she's really humourous haha... but the game that she plays very exciting! at least i force myself to shoot even though the shot still flew away!!!! few days before nusis everything was still ok... but after nusis, things are still as bad, shot super badly today... :( had finals today, and the first shot, i MISFIRED AND GOT A 5!!!!!!! it's super super super super long time i never got this kinda score liao la!!! worst only 6 point now got a 5! grrrrrrr.... just don't know what is happening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! angry with myself, angry with everyone else, disappointed... had the urge to sell away my suit and quit air rifle... but come to think of it, where else can I go? what else can I do? maybe i should have joined a musical group rite?
ok don't talk about sad stuff... let me talk abt my monday's outing with cousin... it started with a super early morning at kino buying books! then later we realised got a lot of time -.- we even tried to look for the library and taka.. end up the lady at the counter said "we don't have library, the library moved out last year" i was SUPER MALU!!!!!! ya but it was quite funny la to think we actually left the basket of the books that we intend to buy in kino then came out gui3 gui3 sui4 sui4... lucky the staff din keep the basket of books! if not we'll have a hard time trying to find again -.- later we went cine to eat the char siew rice which was featured in the qiang jiu pin qiong da zuo zhan... quite nice, my first experience eating char siew rice! later went hmv wanted to find xiao jing teng's cd, but don't have!!!!!! den later cousin wanted to buy urban male slippers so we went upstairs end up the shop don't have slippers! later then we realised that that place got 2 or 3 other shops, each selling different products -.- -.- anyway later we went citylink and she bought 1 pair of slippers which cost 49.90 and she regretted it later =.= come to think of it, it's really super expensive but i had the urge to buy then.. luckily i didn't cos i waste money later on..
went to sing k.. when i heard that the lady at the counter say that K happy can sing till 9 if they don't need the room while student package can only sing till 7. so decided to have K happy instead end up super expensive!!! much more expensive then student... then later we asked if can sing till 9 the person said can if we buy another drink from them.. end up it was already K golden the drink was 9 plus dollars -.- and i actually said yes! must be too long din k liao =.= ya end up i went home penniless >.<
this morning din want to wake up to go sch to do the research project. end up i left home super super late.. yet i was still very you1 xian3..
at the mrt met this stupid idiotic MCP then purposely knocked into me!!!!!! super super angry!!! i was standing at the side waiting to get up the MRT.. then this stupid idiotic man came nearer and nearer to me he was holding a newspaper in his hand. as he is taller the newspaper came to my neck and was as though he wanted to cut my neck with the stupid newspaper.. i din have any reaction cos i was half asleep then he knocked into me!!!! then i "ze" cos i tot he din do it on purpose.. end up he said something like "don't stand at the side" like WAT THE HELL!!!!! the mrt ads keep telling you to stand at the side while waiting for people in the mrt to get out of the train? idiotic la!!!!! uncivilised!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! don't know why got this kinda people around... are you the king? why should people make way for you? shouldn't you at least say "excuse me"? besides i wasn't even blocking the way??!! and you knocked right into me purposely? WTH. angry. angry. angry.
loves; 12:44:00 AM
Friday, June 13, 2008
My eyelids feel heavy, but still decided to blog since I have not done so for a super long time!
Today went for training, in the end went home -.- hope chinyi won't feel offended and i just realized I forgot to tighten her cheek plate for her! yikes... must remember to do that if not tomorrow nusis DIE!
tomorrow nusis liao... haiz don't know how i would shoot but at least no training today... den if i don't shoot well today won't affect me... cos i shot quite ok on tue and wed hopefully that will continue!! just hope i can at least have a 370 cos just changed gun...
finally emailed wulaoshi the zuowen! woo finally done but it's super late... maybe she won't accept it too, cos she's got a lot of character haha... but aiya as expected liao... no choice, at least i handed up!
got a lot of homework! realized everyone is talking abt the same topic... must start must start! but tomorrow after competition have to go for SOT lecture until 8.30pm... got a lot of things want to do! i wan to clear my wardrobe and get new clothes! want to finish my homework! want to pack my shelf... want to revise... blah blah blah don't think i can get any accomplished -.- and I wan to try playing all the new pieces which i downloaded from the net... but prob is i havent even practised my exam pieces -.- -.- hope tomorrow got a little time can practise before going cdans to move stuff... haiz it's time to exercise muscles again!
have been going to vivo city with my mum these two days... haha for two nights, tue and today (thu) went to daiso for shopping...and today (thu) i saw jingwen at candy empire! the chocolates were super expensive la!!! but jus bought for experience haha... shall think twice when i buy next time... wanted to find the fuzzy sweets mr yap bought for us the other time cos i din think it was nice but the others thought it was nice... so wanted to try again but couldn't find :( could only find the gummy sweets but in the end wanted to try something different... pasted a huge note "不准碰 Don't touch!" with my name 雅 on the plastic bag hahaha... 5.40! oh ya jingwen gave me a 10% discount! thanks!!!
hope i can go kbox with my cousin on monday... hope don't need to go back to sch to face that stupid pay rd!!!!!!! wan to go for my last and final outing for the holiday sianz!
went to causeway point today and walked around with KC... feels a bit weird, end up we were looking for colour combinations for the new senior high tee! in the end i went off early and bought a beard papa cream puff before going! went to meet my mum for daiso trip... and my mum actually wanted to eat mcdonalds!! but in the end she regretted -.- i din wan to eat mcdonalds!
and oh yes! some stupid thing happened to me these few days... day before yesterday went to amk breadtalk... and on the way to mrt got some donation thing... blabbered and blabbered end up ask me to donate $10!!!!! OMG la... that's a lot -.- wanted to only donate $2 to just da fa her away... then i saw her list all $5 $10, so i asked if i can only just donate $5... then she blabbered and blabbered ask me to donate $10! idiot la i'm still a student... then she said all those in her list that donated $5 are students -.- PLEASE I'M OSO A STUDENT! then after i gave her the money she asked if i was still working! then i said I'm a student then i walked away...
second incident.. happened at amk too... got this guy asked me to do a survey... he asked me how old I am. i said 17.. then he asked, oh working already? then i said i'm studying in jc.. then he asked which jc.. i said dunman high... then he was like dunman high...? then i said IP.. den he orh! integrated programme ar! ok thank you... -.- idiotic la do i look like i'm working already?
DO I LOOK THAT OLD!!!!!!!
remember got another incident oso at amk... oso survey the person oso tot that i'm working liao -.-
tue went to vivo dian xiao er with my mum the waitress also called us 姐妹 -.-
i sincerely hope i don't look that old like wjy... it's a bit unbelievable that he's younger than SCW! i don't wan to look old leh!!!!!!! >.<
loves; 1:40:00 AM
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
I'm having runny nose, sore throat and my head feels heavy! how to go training tmr!!!!! sianzzz den now i still have to rush out gpp... stupid idiotic you! if you don't wan to do, then say... don't make us wait... now we're super late in submission... u could hav told me earlier then i could start work earlier... now it's late liao!!!! and i don't feel like doing now cos i'm not feeling well.....
anyway today went for training then helped kenneth while he helped chin yi adjust her gun a little... after that went for piano... mr chan actually said i was not bad leh! then he asked if i spent some time practising... wanted to lie said i did... in the end i said i din la of course... then he was like didn't practise can play liddat, if got practise even better right? then he asked that i go for training every day... then he said if i can spend the time on piano, i'll be a piano player... >.< guilty all of a sudden... and i missed bukit gombak while taking mrt from yishun cos i slept! when i woke up i saw jing ting and karen... but i pretend didn't see them... oops like very evil la... but just not used to da3 zhao1 hu1...
tmr still got training! my back and neck feels super "sour"... then i became very mouldable... kept changing my position... but at least today's more consistent cos i could get groupings unlike yesterday haiz... shall ask my mother to tui1 for me la... if not don't know how...
really feel like sleeping now!!
loves; 8:21:00 PM
Monday, April 21, 2008
i feel lost!!!!! i don't know what to do and don't have the mood to do anything! have been wasting a lot of time boo!!
btw does anyone know which jc did jane teo go? hmm quite interested to find out which instituitions my primary sch classmates go after sec schs... if anyone manage to find my blog do tag kay!
i will miss air rifle for dunno how many weeks before finally can go for training! haiz!!! meaning no reason to not go for science society... i rather go for training den go for the stupid research thing la! idiot. but looking forward to aluminium though! HAHA!!! hopefully this will be a new chapter of my shooting life and i'll be able to shoot well... i don't wanna aim too high, but i do hope i can get back into nyt again :( haiz.....
loves; 7:54:00 PM
Saturday, April 19, 2008
I realized I dint blog for a super super super long time!!!
anyway to update... my bro really got kicked out :( and he din learn his lesson... still playing computer and... smoking!!! very disappointed :( why is it that other ppl's brother are so pro eg xiao you's brother and my gp relief teacher who is same age as him... sometimes i really think that he's useless... why cant he wake up!!!!
and..... i tink i'm not going for karate anymore!!! but confirmation will depend on rebecca if she wans to go back after common test... she was very affected that we din get out double promotion!!! me too!! had a strong urge to quit forever, and anyway we can learn karate at other places too! and the sensei was super dao! boo!
tomorrow got CLL seminar! :( so i tried to practise piano end up i wanted to fall asleep le la... couldn't play well and i had to refrain from banging on the piano cos it was abt 9 plus liao... so after playing once for each piece i decided to keep the book oops!
there are so many many many things that i need to do!!! they are all piling up...and i always dun hav time cos i always sleep or do all the useless things eg bloghopping -.- i tink the primary reason is because i just dun wanna do my homework... but anyway i got a super urgent homework to do now which is my PI!!! grrr... on computer to do it end up went bloghopping and now i'm blogging! shall try to do later since i already wrote out the stuff just needa type into computer... and i really hope my dear laptop dun crash!!! love u so much and i doubt i'll adapt to windows vista!!! hate the system dunno why! read someone's blog and i really think the person is a B****... dun deserve someone to love u!
did i say i got a new handphone? got it like quite long time ago.. it's red N76! love it haha! at least so much better than the stupid 6280... i'm getting really protective over this phone! it's like when i touched it after doing the stupid bio research project i got so paranoid that i wiped it through for dunno how many times and i bought a packet of tissue paper for that... which is so -.- after i thought of it..
and these few days have been staying back to do the stupid research project... and it always fails!!! grrrrr i doubt we'll have anymore time left :( and it seems that i'm always the one doing the things and zdl is at the side doing all the manual stuff -.- maybe i should give him chance to do it rite while i slack! but apparently the lab techs question us why we always leave zdl to do all the stuff by himself... and i think that means weds when all 3 of us are not free..
and i pon-ed training this wed! wanted to do PI de end up i stayed back and do the research project!!!! end up i din do PI and i dragged until now!
I got lotsa lotsa lotsa tutorials and catching up to do! Common test's coming soon!!!! HELP ME!!!!
and today got announcement for HTNS invitational! i was feeling weird when i heard something "tan jun ya"... den i realized it was announcement of what we got... i got 8th :( dropped from 5th to 8th!!! it was stupid stupid stupid!!!! i shot 4 7s in the finals and i got 82!!! YUCKS! It's the worst score i ever got since sec 1 june!!!! WTH WTH WTH... i got 4 7s and the other 6 shots i got 9s... idiot la!!!!!! from 5th to the last position -.- idiot idiot idiot... i guess the jnrs must be mocking at me lors... :(
CLL test was thursday and i tink i'm gonna fail it! dunno how i answer questions la... hate it that i tend to beat about the bush when i answer questions... no matter wat subject, gp, cll, even science subjects!!!!! i must learn to chang hua duan shuo!!!!!!! mr yap wrote "long-winded leh" on my compre -.- and i wrote the longest essay for the first essay assignment... i'm crappy lars... how to change! hmm and i tink i'll miss mr yap when he leaves the sch in june... he's quite a good teacher after all :) but my hong hong is still the cutest yay!
got a lot of tests coming arh!!!!!! got to study and catch up....... sianzzz i wan straight As! but with my attitude i doubt i'll even got straight Es -.- straight Us probably?
此时此刻，我的心情十分烦躁。不知道自己想要的是什么。找不到人生的方向。不知道人生的目的是什么。我需要打起精神！
and btw we had personality test... and i'm ISTJ...and i tink it suits me... except the fact that i'll make sure i'll get things done by deadlines -.- i used to be able to do that... but i cant pick myself up now... and i'm suitable to be an accountant wow! and pharmacist or teacher! but i doubt i got the 资格to be 王老师's 高徒 like H-H... haha...
Jiayou! burn the bed ymy...
and oh ya saw xiu rong last sunday... really miss her a lot!!! always have a lot to talk to her and i get really excited when i see her lol... bought keychains from her ha but i dun tink will have much use!
i must try to blog with proper language and don't sound so childish. HMM.
loves; 1:35:00 AM
Thursday, April 03, 2008
哥哥被理工学院开除了，因为成绩不理想的关系。。。 哎！很替他担心，连平时对他不理不睬的爸爸都和他心平气和地谈。看得出，父母都很担心。 因为可以说他的前途即将被毁！希望明天见家长时能挽回些什么，希望哥哥能终于醒过来，不要再沉迷电脑了！！！ 他已经浪费很多时间了，不想再看他堕落。
请菩萨保佑！:(
哥哥，加油加油加油！！
loves; 11:24:00 PM
