Finally another holiday tmorrow!!!! YAY!!!!! finally can relax le! today dr yap wasted my time again!!!! GRRRRRRR... after science society went to bras basah to buy books and went library to borrow books... dunno how many i'll read in the end.. but i'll try to read the book that i bought which is san mao's book, for the zuo wen :( got very low marks... den i realized my standard of chinese is VERY LOW!!!! quite demoralising.. haiz! must improve chinese and english for gp... hmm feel like i'm acting like an arts student! but weirdly, the subject that i'm most proud of now, is actually.... GP!! it's the only subject that i not only passed, but passed by a few marks! hahaha!!

shall try to explore my handphone now... it's really sad that i only have time to explore now... 1 week le!

and i'm starting to love training again!!!! cos my standard is coming back!! no more scattered groupings! yay! thanks to the new position? but my hand position has been wrong, now i have an injured wrist!! BOO! plus i pulled my back muscle.. it's at the left side too... now my whole left side of my body is injured!! :( wonder if i'll be wai1 to one side when i'm old... cos my shooting position is now 70, 30 in ratio... exerting more pressure on the left side than on the right... den coach don't let me blink when i'm aiming!!!!!!! den i was super xin ku as i blink more often that the others since young... den i was tearing while trying to control myself not to blink! den i see yongliang blinking when aiming... i was super bushuang!!!!! end up i couldn't even see the target card properly, so i anyhow shoot... lol! i guess maybe the coach is trying to shift my attention to my position la... cos since after the stupid trials, my mental has been affected terribly... shoot blank card still can, once i turn to the real target, start shivering and shivering... den i dun dare to fire again... so by insisting that i do not blink, and check my position everytime, it's actually shifting my attention again... and i finally realized that i do not shake as much, and my stability is coming back!!!!! i wan to get back into nyt again!!! Hahaha... but it's true in a way that i don't wan to waste my dad's money on the suit... den also... i have finally found my passion back for shooting! after dhis... i got really scared that i suddenly became very enthu for training... i even took taxi there lor... to ensure that i have lanes... as i have missed training a lot of times, as i wanted to let the newbies train... but now... NO! i myself wan to train!!!!!! love training!! kept wanting to go for training.. but i noe yr 4s are there.... so sure cannot train de la! looking forward to next wed's training!

Finally another holiday tmorrow!!!! YAY!!!!! finally can relax le! today dr yap wasted my time again!!!! GRRRRRRR... after science society went to bras basah to buy books and went library to borrow books... dunno how many i'll read in the end.. but i'll try to read the book that i bought which is san mao's book, for the zuo wen :( got very low marks... den i realized my standard of chinese is VERY LOW!!!! quite demoralising.. haiz! must improve chinese and english for gp... hmm feel like i'm acting like an arts student! but weirdly, the subject that i'm most proud of now, is actually.... GP!! it's the only subject that i not only passed, but passed by a few marks! hahaha!!

shall try to explore my handphone now... it's really sad that i only have time to explore now... 1 week le!

and i'm starting to love training again!!!! cos my standard is coming back!! no more scattered groupings! yay! thanks to the new position? but my hand position has been wrong, now i have an injured wrist!! BOO! plus i pulled my back muscle.. it's at the left side too... now my whole left side of my body is injured!! :( wonder if i'll be wai1 to one side when i'm old... cos my shooting position is now 70, 30 in ratio... exerting more pressure on the left side than on the right... den coach don't let me blink when i'm aiming!!!!!!! den i was super xin ku as i blink more often that the others since young... den i was tearing while trying to control myself not to blink! den i see yongliang blinking when aiming... i was super bushuang!!!!! end up i couldn't even see the target card properly, so i anyhow shoot... lol! i guess maybe the coach is trying to shift my attention to my position la... cos since after the stupid trials, my mental has been affected terribly... shoot blank card still can, once i turn to the real target, start shivering and shivering... den i dun dare to fire again... so by insisting that i do not blink, and check my position everytime, it's actually shifting my attention again... and i finally realized that i do not shake as much, and my stability is coming back!!!!! i wan to get back into nyt again!!! Hahaha... but it's true in a way that i don't wan to waste my dad's money on the suit... den also... i have finally found my passion back for shooting! after dhis... i got really scared that i suddenly became very enthu for training... i even took taxi there lor... to ensure that i have lanes... as i have missed training a lot of times, as i wanted to let the newbies train... but now... NO! i myself wan to train!!!!!! love training!! kept wanting to go for training.. but i noe yr 4s are there.... so sure cannot train de la! looking forward to next wed's training!