the previous post was recap.. now some reflections..

today did some thinking while i was on the super long bus.. seems lyk ppl are bushuang that i'm taking science society.. cos i hold committee position in air weapons.. but it's lyk i won't want to give up science society! cos it's so hard to get in! 20 plus ppl and they only chose 6! which idiot would want to give up his/her place?? it's lyk ppl are fighting to get in and here I am giving up my place? NO WAY. to the very worst i'll give up air rifle.. cos i'm getting nowhere in shooting too.. no sense of direction anymore.. but xueting said it's wasted cos i have been committed to air rifle for so long.. i really dunno.. when can i ever perform again? or i can never perform again?

thinking of dropping piano le.. i really dun hav the time to practise! it's lyk mr chan has to bug me to practise every lesson.. and i'm quite sure that i'll definitely fail this grade without sufficient practice cos the pieces are damn hard and the scales are a lot.. but it' quite wasted rite.. i'm at grade 7 le.. just a few more steps to completing the whole thing.. i dun wanna waste my mother's money.. it's lyk i have been learning from k2 till now.. which is lyk 6yrs to 16 yrs? i'm super slow yea i noe... -.- but i do lyk playing piano but not practising piano.. my mother said i won't come back after i terminate.. but i noe deep down somewhere i'll definitely come back to at least finish till grade 8 de.. so should I give up? piano is only 1 hr per week but without practice i'll definitely fail den i'll waste a few hundred bucks of my mother's money again... really dunno... HAIZ!

then just drew up my schedule wat i have every week.. it's lyk so super packed.. den i stil lhave to squeeze in science society.. air rifle already takes up 2 days of my week.. tuition another two days.. how abt karate? it's all my own fault that i sign up for so many things lar... if i hadnt sign up karate i would have had a lot of time.. but prob is i signed up and i LOVE karate a lot!!!!!!!! i won't bear to give it up de.. somemore just started unlyk piano which i have been struggling with for years...

it's a brand new year!!! and i hope i can focus on my studies now.. cannot slack anymore!!!!!!!!! this is the crucial year for me to 咸鱼翻身 if not i can be quite sure that i'm doomed to fail le..... :'( i dun wan my studies to suffer but yet i wan to try out new things and carry on with my present commitments... but i'll be too busy to study!!! plus i'm so lazy... super super 烦！！！！！

and i must learn to put all unhappy stuff behind me.. air rifle stuff.. studies.. spoilt relationships.. blah blah blah.. must learn to forget all abt them! it's a brand new year and i really dun wan to lose more friends!!! must MUG HARD!!!!!

hope i'll be able to survive a levels years and be as pro as the year sixes la.. they are lyk so super pro.. they can juggle so many things around.. must treat them as role models! :D

the previous post was recap.. now some reflections..

today did some thinking while i was on the super long bus.. seems lyk ppl are bushuang that i'm taking science society.. cos i hold committee position in air weapons.. but it's lyk i won't want to give up science society! cos it's so hard to get in! 20 plus ppl and they only chose 6! which idiot would want to give up his/her place?? it's lyk ppl are fighting to get in and here I am giving up my place? NO WAY. to the very worst i'll give up air rifle.. cos i'm getting nowhere in shooting too.. no sense of direction anymore.. but xueting said it's wasted cos i have been committed to air rifle for so long.. i really dunno.. when can i ever perform again? or i can never perform again?

thinking of dropping piano le.. i really dun hav the time to practise! it's lyk mr chan has to bug me to practise every lesson.. and i'm quite sure that i'll definitely fail this grade without sufficient practice cos the pieces are damn hard and the scales are a lot.. but it' quite wasted rite.. i'm at grade 7 le.. just a few more steps to completing the whole thing.. i dun wanna waste my mother's money.. it's lyk i have been learning from k2 till now.. which is lyk 6yrs to 16 yrs? i'm super slow yea i noe... -.- but i do lyk playing piano but not practising piano.. my mother said i won't come back after i terminate.. but i noe deep down somewhere i'll definitely come back to at least finish till grade 8 de.. so should I give up? piano is only 1 hr per week but without practice i'll definitely fail den i'll waste a few hundred bucks of my mother's money again... really dunno... HAIZ!

then just drew up my schedule wat i have every week.. it's lyk so super packed.. den i stil lhave to squeeze in science society.. air rifle already takes up 2 days of my week.. tuition another two days.. how abt karate? it's all my own fault that i sign up for so many things lar... if i hadnt sign up karate i would have had a lot of time.. but prob is i signed up and i LOVE karate a lot!!!!!!!! i won't bear to give it up de.. somemore just started unlyk piano which i have been struggling with for years...

it's a brand new year!!! and i hope i can focus on my studies now.. cannot slack anymore!!!!!!!!! this is the crucial year for me to 咸鱼翻身 if not i can be quite sure that i'm doomed to fail le..... :'( i dun wan my studies to suffer but yet i wan to try out new things and carry on with my present commitments... but i'll be too busy to study!!! plus i'm so lazy... super super 烦！！！！！

and i must learn to put all unhappy stuff behind me.. air rifle stuff.. studies.. spoilt relationships.. blah blah blah.. must learn to forget all abt them! it's a brand new year and i really dun wan to lose more friends!!! must MUG HARD!!!!!

hope i'll be able to survive a levels years and be as pro as the year sixes la.. they are lyk so super pro.. they can juggle so many things around.. must treat them as role models! :D