To know that someone out there cares about how you feel no matter how busy she is.  Thanks, you know who you are! Jiayou with your work all right! :)

The past week has been hellish, I was having mood swings every now and then.  I could be really depressed on one night, but the next day I could feel really happy just cos something good happened.  I was so worried that I was developing a split personality >.< So, I had to vent some of those negative emotions on this blog, partly cos I know that not many visit this blog anymore haha!

But anyway after clarifying things, I guess I'm perfectly fine now.  There wasn't a need for me to self-doubt so much. Perhaps, the dunman high inferiority complex still exists in my blood >.<

On a side note, went for a karaoke singing session for the first time in UK last night.  Had great fun, sang my heart out, screamed for some songs (lol). It was a good way to vent frustrations, although it was rather expensive.  20 pounds! /.\ And yes, time to get back to work! I'm swarmed with work and deadlines now, ahhhhh!

1. Have more courage
2. Stop being so hard on myself
3. Stop emoing
4. Stop being stressed for no reason
5. Stop slacking!

:(((( Like I tweeted, I screwed up.  Can't forgive myself and I must have provided others with a poor impression of myself. Really feel like tearing myself apart, literally. How could I have forgotten to ask that important question?

Maybe I should just learn to stop being so hard on myself and always push myself right into the corner?

And yes, I should really stop thinking about this and get back to work, but I just can't. Sighs.

I am always the one who provides advices and support to my friends, I enjoy doing that, but it seems like I am the one who needs counselling actually.

It's like I thought that I am fine at juggling stuff since that was what I have been doing for the past few years, but as things are starting to go full speed now, I find myself struggling to catch up.

Gear up and keep running please, I've got no time to lose and I'm wayyyy behind schedule.

Kill me now please! :( My head's going to explode soon. ARGH

Hi there, it's emo time again.

1. I miss my friends, alot alot alot. Cyn, yl, xt, bear, lyon, AWC peeps. Why is it so hard to get good friends after leaving secondary school? My problem eh?

2. Watched this video of how a 2 yr old girl got knocked down by two vans and none of the passers-by helped her. She is in critical situation now. It's utterly shocking and disturbing. Where are the so called 'morals'? Is it that this concept is gradually becoming non-existent in our present society?

人与人之间的相处和所有关系是不是都建筑在利义之上？we are friends today because I'm of use to you, I bring some sort of happiness to you and make you feel less lonely. Tomorrow, you find someone better, I'm now accused of 'spoiling' your life for the past few months. Is it inherent in us that we need to seek companionship, that's how communities and societies come about? Do we form relationships because there's some form of utility in it?

Perhaps, I was just too naive then. I am still trying to adapt to this new environment. Trying hard to no avail. But, I will still continue to do so. And stop thinking about emo stuff again!

Looking forward to aiesec meeting tomorrow where I can meet and talk to people. That really gives me a lot of energy.

 *pardon me for any grammatical errors or spelling errors! Not easy to be blogging with mobile phone :) Have a lovely day today, to you and to me.

I wonder what came over me to have wrote this, (this doesn't even count as a poem haha). But well, I guess it's still worth sharing, cos I'm seldom so hmm 感性? hahaha. And if you notice, I wrote it on a piece of tissue paper, which was kinda weird lol. Sometimes I think that I don't even understand myself? So I don't blame anyone who can't understand.

Looking at the number of question marks, I do realise that it may be that I don't like to come to terms with myself. I like to ask a lot of questions but I don't answer them, because I don't even have the answers to those questions. I don't know why is there a fear to come to terms with myself, and to reflect deeply upon myself. Guess it's this fear of delving too deeply and revealing too much that I don't want myself to know or that I refuse to accept.

So moral of the story is, I lack intrapersonal skills right? So time to improve on that, and try to answer those questions I guess.  :(

To know that someone out there cares about how you feel no matter how busy she is.  Thanks, you know who you are! Jiayou with your work all right! :)

The past week has been hellish, I was having mood swings every now and then.  I could be really depressed on one night, but the next day I could feel really happy just cos something good happened.  I was so worried that I was developing a split personality >.< So, I had to vent some of those negative emotions on this blog, partly cos I know that not many visit this blog anymore haha!

But anyway after clarifying things, I guess I'm perfectly fine now.  There wasn't a need for me to self-doubt so much. Perhaps, the dunman high inferiority complex still exists in my blood >.<

On a side note, went for a karaoke singing session for the first time in UK last night.  Had great fun, sang my heart out, screamed for some songs (lol). It was a good way to vent frustrations, although it was rather expensive.  20 pounds! /.\ And yes, time to get back to work! I'm swarmed with work and deadlines now, ahhhhh!

1. Have more courage
2. Stop being so hard on myself
3. Stop emoing
4. Stop being stressed for no reason
5. Stop slacking!

:(((( Like I tweeted, I screwed up.  Can't forgive myself and I must have provided others with a poor impression of myself. Really feel like tearing myself apart, literally. How could I have forgotten to ask that important question?

Maybe I should just learn to stop being so hard on myself and always push myself right into the corner?

And yes, I should really stop thinking about this and get back to work, but I just can't. Sighs.

I am always the one who provides advices and support to my friends, I enjoy doing that, but it seems like I am the one who needs counselling actually.

It's like I thought that I am fine at juggling stuff since that was what I have been doing for the past few years, but as things are starting to go full speed now, I find myself struggling to catch up.

Gear up and keep running please, I've got no time to lose and I'm wayyyy behind schedule.

Kill me now please! :( My head's going to explode soon. ARGH

Hi there, it's emo time again.

1. I miss my friends, alot alot alot. Cyn, yl, xt, bear, lyon, AWC peeps. Why is it so hard to get good friends after leaving secondary school? My problem eh?

2. Watched this video of how a 2 yr old girl got knocked down by two vans and none of the passers-by helped her. She is in critical situation now. It's utterly shocking and disturbing. Where are the so called 'morals'? Is it that this concept is gradually becoming non-existent in our present society?

人与人之间的相处和所有关系是不是都建筑在利义之上？we are friends today because I'm of use to you, I bring some sort of happiness to you and make you feel less lonely. Tomorrow, you find someone better, I'm now accused of 'spoiling' your life for the past few months. Is it inherent in us that we need to seek companionship, that's how communities and societies come about? Do we form relationships because there's some form of utility in it?

Perhaps, I was just too naive then. I am still trying to adapt to this new environment. Trying hard to no avail. But, I will still continue to do so. And stop thinking about emo stuff again!

Looking forward to aiesec meeting tomorrow where I can meet and talk to people. That really gives me a lot of energy.

 *pardon me for any grammatical errors or spelling errors! Not easy to be blogging with mobile phone :) Have a lovely day today, to you and to me.

I wonder what came over me to have wrote this, (this doesn't even count as a poem haha). But well, I guess it's still worth sharing, cos I'm seldom so hmm 感性? hahaha. And if you notice, I wrote it on a piece of tissue paper, which was kinda weird lol. Sometimes I think that I don't even understand myself? So I don't blame anyone who can't understand.

Looking at the number of question marks, I do realise that it may be that I don't like to come to terms with myself. I like to ask a lot of questions but I don't answer them, because I don't even have the answers to those questions. I don't know why is there a fear to come to terms with myself, and to reflect deeply upon myself. Guess it's this fear of delving too deeply and revealing too much that I don't want myself to know or that I refuse to accept.

So moral of the story is, I lack intrapersonal skills right? So time to improve on that, and try to answer those questions I guess.  :(