Finally done with Japanese o level! haha i'm quite sure i'll get a F9.. The reading comprehension was quite easy actually, but all the kanjis i dunno! cos i din bother to study haahaha... the listening comprehension was super difficult, and i'm not the only one that says that.. There's an open-ended section, which was super horribly difficult.. the person was speaking so quickly, that i could catch nothing! den i just anyhow write lor, haha definitely wrong de. 7 marks gone liao out of 22! BOO HOO... aiya hu cares la... it wun affect me in promoting rite? so i should just forget about this..

And I'm glad that out of the 9 ppl that we invited to join, only 1 is left for more persuading... the others accepted le! haha i managed to ask lyon to join us as cameo cca haha since like csc and dance shouldn't be too straining?

shall talk abt yesterday ba... yesterday had a meeting for publications, den reached home at 5 plus which was super late... den i realized that i need to air my karate uniform cos they are super smelly frm my sweat the day before yesterday.. den do here do there, den i committed a very serious mistake.. i on the internet explorer window.. den u can predict what happened, i left home late.. luckily i need not wait for too long for 112... den right after lesson ended, adeline called me.. saying that the proposal got problem and the teacher ms jennifer wu is talking to her on msn regarding this.. so my whole journey home was on the handphone with adeline.. OOPS.. even when i was shaking here and there on the stupid 147 bus that took super long to come.. and no seats somemore! den when i reach home, i cannt bathe lor... imagine i have sweated so much.. but i dun blame adeline la.. cos if i still went to bathe, sure cannot finish in time... so we discussed again.. den she re-did the 30-week plan and i re-did the objectives all that.. we did till 1 plus am lor... den i was super super super pissed.. i dunno why i'm the one doing all the work again.. but adeline like dun mind leh... am i really that petty? cos i dun wan to be like what i have predicted: i'll end up doing most of the work while others shake leg!

and oso i was printing 2 copies of the proposal which was 10 pages long.. end up i used 20 pieces of paper... den suddenly i recalled i had jap exam and won't be going to sch! so i told my mum that i would pass this to adeline in the morning at the subsidised bus stop before going for 3rd lang.. end up on the next morning, my mother shouted at me asking me to call adeline if she can meet my parents or not... den it's like i was talking to adeline on the phone with a toad's voice.. wah in a super bad mood la, first thing in the morning get scolded twice by mother... den later my mum left home in a rush that she even forgot to take my proposal!!!! lucky my dad was still around wearing his shoes, so i asked him to help me take lor.. den suddenly my mum banged on the door and scolded me for not giving her the proposal... -.-

den later come back, discuss the proposal again with mdm arfah... again, i realized many unconfirmed things.. den suddenly got very irritated! i lost my temper again at Chee Guan... dunno la, super annoying... it's like not enuff sleep, and dunno why i'm doing all these.. and what made me most mad is, after the first discussion, he dun wan to bring the paper for first discussion to sch again for me for reference. the paper contained what kenneth wrote for our aims and objectives... it's in pro language, and i definitely cannot do that... so when i was doing the proposal for the first time, i was super super super angry. cos i told him to sms me what kenneth wrote and he din do that. so i just had to write in what i can remember la.. end up today mdm arfah said the language got problem.. den i was very very very very very very angry. GRRRRRR it's not the first time liao lor... always 口说不做。dunno how this cca can survive... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

im losing confidence in this whole thing la.. den yesterday got quite troubled by the cca option form thing.. cos i wan to join maths and science council! it may help in my testimonial and i would like to take on research programmes... den now i'm tied down by this stupid thing... got very irritated again. i even wanted to quit air weapons lor... haiya! i still feel that i seem to be losing something if i dun try out other new ccas.. apparently very few ppl are staying in their junior high CCA as a core cca maybe except band. hopefully MSC can be taken as 2nd CCA!

and now another troubling question... subject combi.. i hope to have a 4H2 combi leh.. but i dun hav gpa 3.2! 3.06... gRRR i just need 1 C grade to be pulled up to a B grade den i can hit 3.2 le!!!!! hopefully LA or Chem can be moderated!!!!!!! den basically i tink i'll be going for science stream la... ya i noe i have to choose according to interest.. actually to tell the truth, I AM interested in science facts.. but dunno why i cant do well.. maybe my brain dun work fast enuff or i'm lazy to work hard lors.. cos science subjects require a lot of hard work and brain work. I know my abilities are oso not in science, but i do feel that i din work hard enuff.. My mum told me i shouldn't 逃避from sciences just because i cant do well for it... there must be some reason and one would definitely be SLACK! so it will more or less be confirmed at Maths, Bio and Chem. But i'm still in a dilemna to choose my subjects for contrasive subjects. history, econs or Chinese Literature????? if u ask interest, i have interest in all 3. If u ask abilities? I would tell u, i dun really have much abilities in these subjects except that maybe i would be more confident in Chinese Literature. HOWEVER, history will be able to help me in GP! so i dunno what to choose. econs sound useful oso.. den it's a lot of analytical work... quite similar in how history works... HAIZ DUNNO WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!

have to make the choice on 30th le!!!!! worrying worrying worrying!!!!! aiya.. but for now i tink i need sleep... cos tmr have piano! and i havent practised.. last week is public holiday, tink the teacher would definitely expect me to practise.. but i din! oops! dunno wat i was doing... havent been doing homework and stuff.. i dunno what i'm doing leh... i'm not busy... maybe busy watching tv or going out? oso not really lor... friends always cannot go out with me.. although today i went kbox from 5pm-9pm.. quite expensive lor... but nubbad la, sang quite a lot of songs.. den sang a lot of duets too! finally i can sing as a female voice!!! haha but it's only with "fake voice" cos my real voice is low.. den my "fake voice" sounds very childish.. den the chee guan said that im only suitable to sing cute cute songs which is so yucky. they said my singing is ordinary lor... so hurt!!!!! i wan to improve in singing!!!!! i always cannot find my correct key.. i can sing sing sing den suddenly jump a key! dunno why i have this problem leh... i tend to follow the original singer's key.. den it's most of the time either too high or too low... or i end up using "fake voice" all the way... haiz. only like liang jing ru's songs is sang most comfortably... but sometimes i use "fake voice" at the inappropriate parts... i can only find my key if i sing together with another person who oso have a quite low voice like Rebecca! OMG... haiz..... must learn to find key... but maybe it's because i have a large range! hahaha... as in... even though i'm using "fake voice" it's not really "fake" cos i still can go even higher which is then the "fake voice".. but normally when i talk everyone noes my voice is very low.. but when i start singing, the key will jump a few keys! also dunno why lor... i can sing sing sing with this key until i have to use "fake voice" which i'm not good at utilising... have to control all that... haiz hope that i can start learning singing soon to learn how to use my diaphragm to sing properly and to find my proper key and not change in all the time!!!! if not liddat how to sing well rite! :)

Finally done with Japanese o level! haha i'm quite sure i'll get a F9.. The reading comprehension was quite easy actually, but all the kanjis i dunno! cos i din bother to study haahaha... the listening comprehension was super difficult, and i'm not the only one that says that.. There's an open-ended section, which was super horribly difficult.. the person was speaking so quickly, that i could catch nothing! den i just anyhow write lor, haha definitely wrong de. 7 marks gone liao out of 22! BOO HOO... aiya hu cares la... it wun affect me in promoting rite? so i should just forget about this..

And I'm glad that out of the 9 ppl that we invited to join, only 1 is left for more persuading... the others accepted le! haha i managed to ask lyon to join us as cameo cca haha since like csc and dance shouldn't be too straining?

shall talk abt yesterday ba... yesterday had a meeting for publications, den reached home at 5 plus which was super late... den i realized that i need to air my karate uniform cos they are super smelly frm my sweat the day before yesterday.. den do here do there, den i committed a very serious mistake.. i on the internet explorer window.. den u can predict what happened, i left home late.. luckily i need not wait for too long for 112... den right after lesson ended, adeline called me.. saying that the proposal got problem and the teacher ms jennifer wu is talking to her on msn regarding this.. so my whole journey home was on the handphone with adeline.. OOPS.. even when i was shaking here and there on the stupid 147 bus that took super long to come.. and no seats somemore! den when i reach home, i cannt bathe lor... imagine i have sweated so much.. but i dun blame adeline la.. cos if i still went to bathe, sure cannot finish in time... so we discussed again.. den she re-did the 30-week plan and i re-did the objectives all that.. we did till 1 plus am lor... den i was super super super pissed.. i dunno why i'm the one doing all the work again.. but adeline like dun mind leh... am i really that petty? cos i dun wan to be like what i have predicted: i'll end up doing most of the work while others shake leg!

and oso i was printing 2 copies of the proposal which was 10 pages long.. end up i used 20 pieces of paper... den suddenly i recalled i had jap exam and won't be going to sch! so i told my mum that i would pass this to adeline in the morning at the subsidised bus stop before going for 3rd lang.. end up on the next morning, my mother shouted at me asking me to call adeline if she can meet my parents or not... den it's like i was talking to adeline on the phone with a toad's voice.. wah in a super bad mood la, first thing in the morning get scolded twice by mother... den later my mum left home in a rush that she even forgot to take my proposal!!!! lucky my dad was still around wearing his shoes, so i asked him to help me take lor.. den suddenly my mum banged on the door and scolded me for not giving her the proposal... -.-

den later come back, discuss the proposal again with mdm arfah... again, i realized many unconfirmed things.. den suddenly got very irritated! i lost my temper again at Chee Guan... dunno la, super annoying... it's like not enuff sleep, and dunno why i'm doing all these.. and what made me most mad is, after the first discussion, he dun wan to bring the paper for first discussion to sch again for me for reference. the paper contained what kenneth wrote for our aims and objectives... it's in pro language, and i definitely cannot do that... so when i was doing the proposal for the first time, i was super super super angry. cos i told him to sms me what kenneth wrote and he din do that. so i just had to write in what i can remember la.. end up today mdm arfah said the language got problem.. den i was very very very very very very angry. GRRRRRR it's not the first time liao lor... always 口说不做。dunno how this cca can survive... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

im losing confidence in this whole thing la.. den yesterday got quite troubled by the cca option form thing.. cos i wan to join maths and science council! it may help in my testimonial and i would like to take on research programmes... den now i'm tied down by this stupid thing... got very irritated again. i even wanted to quit air weapons lor... haiya! i still feel that i seem to be losing something if i dun try out other new ccas.. apparently very few ppl are staying in their junior high CCA as a core cca maybe except band. hopefully MSC can be taken as 2nd CCA!

and now another troubling question... subject combi.. i hope to have a 4H2 combi leh.. but i dun hav gpa 3.2! 3.06... gRRR i just need 1 C grade to be pulled up to a B grade den i can hit 3.2 le!!!!! hopefully LA or Chem can be moderated!!!!!!! den basically i tink i'll be going for science stream la... ya i noe i have to choose according to interest.. actually to tell the truth, I AM interested in science facts.. but dunno why i cant do well.. maybe my brain dun work fast enuff or i'm lazy to work hard lors.. cos science subjects require a lot of hard work and brain work. I know my abilities are oso not in science, but i do feel that i din work hard enuff.. My mum told me i shouldn't 逃避from sciences just because i cant do well for it... there must be some reason and one would definitely be SLACK! so it will more or less be confirmed at Maths, Bio and Chem. But i'm still in a dilemna to choose my subjects for contrasive subjects. history, econs or Chinese Literature????? if u ask interest, i have interest in all 3. If u ask abilities? I would tell u, i dun really have much abilities in these subjects except that maybe i would be more confident in Chinese Literature. HOWEVER, history will be able to help me in GP! so i dunno what to choose. econs sound useful oso.. den it's a lot of analytical work... quite similar in how history works... HAIZ DUNNO WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!

have to make the choice on 30th le!!!!! worrying worrying worrying!!!!! aiya.. but for now i tink i need sleep... cos tmr have piano! and i havent practised.. last week is public holiday, tink the teacher would definitely expect me to practise.. but i din! oops! dunno wat i was doing... havent been doing homework and stuff.. i dunno what i'm doing leh... i'm not busy... maybe busy watching tv or going out? oso not really lor... friends always cannot go out with me.. although today i went kbox from 5pm-9pm.. quite expensive lor... but nubbad la, sang quite a lot of songs.. den sang a lot of duets too! finally i can sing as a female voice!!! haha but it's only with "fake voice" cos my real voice is low.. den my "fake voice" sounds very childish.. den the chee guan said that im only suitable to sing cute cute songs which is so yucky. they said my singing is ordinary lor... so hurt!!!!! i wan to improve in singing!!!!! i always cannot find my correct key.. i can sing sing sing den suddenly jump a key! dunno why i have this problem leh... i tend to follow the original singer's key.. den it's most of the time either too high or too low... or i end up using "fake voice" all the way... haiz. only like liang jing ru's songs is sang most comfortably... but sometimes i use "fake voice" at the inappropriate parts... i can only find my key if i sing together with another person who oso have a quite low voice like Rebecca! OMG... haiz..... must learn to find key... but maybe it's because i have a large range! hahaha... as in... even though i'm using "fake voice" it's not really "fake" cos i still can go even higher which is then the "fake voice".. but normally when i talk everyone noes my voice is very low.. but when i start singing, the key will jump a few keys! also dunno why lor... i can sing sing sing with this key until i have to use "fake voice" which i'm not good at utilising... have to control all that... haiz hope that i can start learning singing soon to learn how to use my diaphragm to sing properly and to find my proper key and not change in all the time!!!! if not liddat how to sing well rite! :)