This is my 104th post. Decided not to lock up my blog cos I really need a place for me to pour out my troubles.

shouldn't have gone to the airport today. it made me so melancholic. started to emo while waiting for yl to come. haiz. started to think of the day when yl is leaving and when i'm leaving. will i be willing to leave singapore? the country that i have lived for the past 19 years of my life to another country that i have never been to? i was told that my decision was brave but sometimes i just can't help but worry. i'm giving up stability to follow a dream, a dream that i'm not even sure of. i have to admit, i am really being irrational this time. but i just can't help it. somehow i just have a feeling that this is the course, and this is the university for me. a sudden feeling. but i rarely rely on intuition to make decisions. this is the first time and yet it's such an important decision. :(

just hope that i would be able to survive the 3 years + ... how many years that i need to stay over there. ok maybe i may love the place so much that i decide to migrate there. still a possibility.

been working at white sands as cashier for the past two weeks. it's ending really soon. this sunday! i think i will really miss my colleagues over there! ruiqi who thinks that i resemble the younger version of her haha. eunice whom i always talk to her and fan2 her. and pretty pretty cindy! now i'm hoping that i can extend my contract until july when i may be able to do relief teaching again. hoping to save up as much money as possible to reduce the amount of stress on mum. :( cashiering is a really fun job!!

i should have accepted the offer and stay in singapore, right?!

haiz and i think i really really need to go start reading and clear those books that i have bought/borrowed. but can i stop working?

:( :( :( it's really hard to say goodbye to my three to four very very good friends whom i have made over the past few years. i shall keep thinking about this sad stuff until i become numb to it(hopefully).

SAD!

This is my 104th post. Decided not to lock up my blog cos I really need a place for me to pour out my troubles.

shouldn't have gone to the airport today. it made me so melancholic. started to emo while waiting for yl to come. haiz. started to think of the day when yl is leaving and when i'm leaving. will i be willing to leave singapore? the country that i have lived for the past 19 years of my life to another country that i have never been to? i was told that my decision was brave but sometimes i just can't help but worry. i'm giving up stability to follow a dream, a dream that i'm not even sure of. i have to admit, i am really being irrational this time. but i just can't help it. somehow i just have a feeling that this is the course, and this is the university for me. a sudden feeling. but i rarely rely on intuition to make decisions. this is the first time and yet it's such an important decision. :(

just hope that i would be able to survive the 3 years + ... how many years that i need to stay over there. ok maybe i may love the place so much that i decide to migrate there. still a possibility.

been working at white sands as cashier for the past two weeks. it's ending really soon. this sunday! i think i will really miss my colleagues over there! ruiqi who thinks that i resemble the younger version of her haha. eunice whom i always talk to her and fan2 her. and pretty pretty cindy! now i'm hoping that i can extend my contract until july when i may be able to do relief teaching again. hoping to save up as much money as possible to reduce the amount of stress on mum. :( cashiering is a really fun job!!

i should have accepted the offer and stay in singapore, right?!

haiz and i think i really really need to go start reading and clear those books that i have bought/borrowed. but can i stop working?

:( :( :( it's really hard to say goodbye to my three to four very very good friends whom i have made over the past few years. i shall keep thinking about this sad stuff until i become numb to it(hopefully).

SAD!