Today was the nationals... we lost to TMS le!!!!! tot we have been winning east zone champion! so we tot it was the minimum minimum minimum award that we have to win... haiz.. SAD. it's ok if we dun get into nationals la cos the other schs are doing super well. got this gal from NYGH getting 395. i mean it's so SIAO la... haiz i havent even get 380 before... so SIANZZZZZZZ.

i wan to get 380!!!!!!! what is just holding me back???

anyway talk abt the scores. vanessa got 385. jinghuan got 376. keat yin got 370.

this is what we thought la... jinghuan should have scored much much higher. she can do it! but she juz dun wan to train more... haiz she wans to study, what can we do? but it's really damn ke xi la! shouldn't have lost deeeeeeee.

blame myself? for shooting so badly during the trials until i cannot get into the main team?

anyway juz recalled. the c gals did quite well too! karen got 373! it's very very good le! even though other schools did better la... but i believe it's her personal best! great job karen! jingting got 368 and felise got 357. it's nubbad too, it's the other schools tt r overperforming le! when i was in c div i tink i got 368 too. my preliminary round got 179! cried until like dunno wat lor.. haiz. it's all over. din even take part. stupid... did outsiders expect me to take part instead?

at first was quite ok already. until teddy raised this issue. den i got very worked up again. kenneth was quite annoyed. haiz. den he was like saying it's over already. is anyone going to cry that u r not taking part?

i kept telling myself that oh well juz accept it. u din do well, that's a fact! true, nobody is going to cry! maybe myself?

will the team do better if i were to shoot instead? it's hard to tell. haiz everything is so unpredictable.

anyway yongliang n cheeguan were quite sad when we found out that we din get east zone champion. i was quite sad too la... cos we always win them! they muz be so happy rite?

i was saying for the b boys all the powers have fallen. but sadly for gals event, we R a power to be reckoned with, and yes we have fallen. oh well it's time to reflect. why the other gals can do so well. and we cant.

nationals is finally over! it's time to pia for studies le! still have around 8 weeks left! wow it's... SO LITTLE! but nevertheless be late than never. put down air rifle first. when exams finish, it's time to pia air rifle again! next year is a div le!!!! i muz hit 380!!!! so that if i were to quit, i will be more gan1 yuan4...

from this, i kept telling myself that i muz grow up and learn something. i muz do reflection on what actually happened that i suddenly cannot shoot well. i guess the problem lies with.....


my mental.


i said before rite? shooting is 30% technics and 70% mental. so even if i have the technics, without the mental, i'll still lose!!!!! this sounds like the jue dui superstar hor? 70% votes and 30% judges score... lol.. haiz anyway back to my reflection.

i decided. i muz try to improve my mental. only then i can start to shoot well. i shouldn't keep brooding on the subject le. if 380 is fated to come, it will come. shall stop asking for it. maybe i juz cant make it when i TINK i can. i tink i have overestimated myself. i'm not as good as i tink i am. i am nothing. nothing. i need to work harder!!!!!!! work on my mental! technics can put aside la hor.. lol.. anyway muz work on my mental! hopefully i can then do better. next year's competition is super stiff la... have jasmine ser!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH very scared of her.. den next year most likely wun hav a team. den i have to compete as individual! OMG!!! got jasmine ser plus a lot of pro pro people. and not forgetting carol who got 395 today. haiz i tink i can forget abt getting nationals individual. aim for east zone one? but vjc got this gal very pro leh! n they use aluminium!!! omg.. but never mind. if i can do it, it wouldn't matter much rite? since universal is juz one grade below aluminium.

work harder!

work harder!

work harder!

in air rifle and studies!

put what u have learnt for this whole month into ur studies!!

persevere like what u did! determination!

STUDY HARD!!!

oh yes, we finally got the windbreakers!!!! YAY!!!!! my hard work! hahaha, cos i was the one liasing... sian i was very very scared that the windbreakers will end up wrong like the badges lor! but phew! everything went out ok. but still late by a day. haiz nationals started yesterday. but never mind today got more people going down cos c gals n b gals compete on the same day. hahaha very happy to see that many members do appreciate it! but there r people who dun of course. but good ting it's only minority!!! i was so scared that they will take the windbreakers n complain that it's very ugly den refuse to wear it. but yay! everything went out ok. then the person from the company praised me! haha she said i was very sharp, settled everything fast. haiya if not fast how to get the windbreakers in time! haha but if i have a lot of time i would still settle fast! i checked the email everyday u noe! lol.. of course fast la! happy happy happy abt the windbreakers! it looks very nice lor.. den it's like chee guan kenneth yongliang and me wore the windbreakers under the sun!!! omg it was so hot until i sweat like mad. haha but it was ok when we got on the bus to northpoint for lunch. so seh! the boys were so proud of the windbreakers lor.. they keep saying that they going to wear the windbreakers to act seh! hahaha... thanks for appreciating it! :)

hope the gals like it too! they din say much abt it though :(

oh ya talking abt yesterday. we ate kfc to celebrate! yongliang got 576! personal best! pro sia! den shaun got personal best 568 too! great job! den for derek, aiya very very ke xi lor... he got 563... cos he misfired a shot, forgot to put in the pellets.. haiz... all of us know that he can get 580 plus de la... den he was saying "he got a 0". den i heard wrongly that he got 580. den we were happy for nothing? lol haiya at least they still got nationals 3rd! me n chee guan were like jumping with joy when it's.. none of our business? haha but it's good that they win! bring glory! bring glory! since we lost so terribly last year. haiz! but sadly b gals n c gals din perform as well. maybe cos the others schs really did very well? even AISS din win first! nanyang got first! they r like SO PRO!!! siao one la. they trained a lot ba? den everyone got the good good suit and good good guns. haiz. we dun hav money. that's only what we can say.

tmr got chem prac! aiya maybe i shouldn't have gone down to support them on wednesday. cynthia was so sarcastic abt it. bet they thought that i used that reason to pon school ba? it's all her fault la! my mum said it seems that she wans to zheng3 me. but i rather believe that she juz wans to study. dun tink she's so scheming? console myself that i'm not that hateful? when sometimes i tink i am. haiz blame on my personality? i juz cannot stand people getting credit for doing nothing! when i'm doing a lot! it's juz so unfair. anyway should i go back to sch after the nationals tmr??? should i should i? but i really wanted to celebrate!!! anyway i oso din go for mrs ong's demo on wed.. haiz. will be very lost tmr ba? i feel very guilty towards mrs ong leh... should have gone for her lesson on wed since it's only 1st period! i only noe it at 7am! n my dad drove off to work liao! if not i would have juz rushed off to school de lor... sorry mrs ong!!!! blame it on the history source based! make me do until 4.30am. den still have training. i was so drained already la. din even bother to check the timetable. ok that's not an excuse. aiya sorry mrs ong!!!!! now she has to demo before i can do the practical on another day. sorry sorry sorry mrs ong!!! but i wouldn't mind staying back de. seriously cos it's my own fault. i devote too much to cca le ba? n i'm missing lessons for nothing! yikes. but it's yongliang, cheeguan n kenneth who are shooting! i mean we are a committee, we should support one another rite? yongliang went today to support b gals too. so should be ok ba? similary chee guan n kenneth went to safra today too... we all support each other ma! n our status is different too? need to go n oversee everything? but i did help out yesterday. shaun tot there will be water provided n he din bring his waterbottle. end up i rushed over to the 7 eleven to buy mineral water for him. haha almost got knocked down by car lor! lol. at least i did something useful ma.

i tink one of my greatest shou1 huo4 is knowing yongliang kenneth n chee guan better. we were like so detached during sec 1 n sec 2! guess being in the committee really makes us very united. so that we can work hard for the club to achieve greater heights! but it's really nice when the 4 of us sit down n start laughing together. it's a really nice experience! i mean they r really my frequency de lor! n i found out chee guan is really similar to me! haha cos same birthday ma... lol. it's really really nice to be friends with them. even though i'm always the only girl -.- haiz very extra la.. but really enjoy the company! without them i would feel very lost ba? den i would only have jinghuan as my friend! but she's not even my friend now. boo hoo.

tmr we are going kbox/movie to celebrate! n we intend to have qing4 gong1 yan4 next saturday! hope we can organise in time! den it will be so nice! really enjoy serving the club. maybe the juniors will feel that we r bossy. den we dun help with anything. actualy a lot of times i wanted to help. but i always have to wait for kenneth they all at the mrt until i become late for training. i always reach there extra early de lor. haiz sorry my juniors! i promise to help out more next time. i will i will. i wouldn't get influenced by them again! i will help out more de.

hope everyone likes the windbreakers!! n thanks to kosmos! the windbreakers were nicely done! yay!!! cheerios!

wish kenneth chee guan n alson very very good luck tmr!!! win nationals!!! den we can officially say "我们是靠男人吃饭的" lol sounds quite obscene.. haha but they were saying we rely on the gals for awards. but seems like we r relying on boys this year! which is very good!

i hope no one says anything bad behind my back. i noe for the past one month plus 我心里一直不平衡.

maybe u have heard what i have said. i admit they were hurtful. very in fact.

i apologise to u. no matter what we r still a team. i shouldn't be a sore loser. i concede defeat. all of us did well! it's the others schools that are overperforming!

hope all of u dun hav misunderstandings of me.. please put urself in my shoes can? i really din mean it.. i'm very hot-headed de.. i admit it myself. :(

sorry...

sorry...

sorry...

Today was the nationals... we lost to TMS le!!!!! tot we have been winning east zone champion! so we tot it was the minimum minimum minimum award that we have to win... haiz.. SAD. it's ok if we dun get into nationals la cos the other schs are doing super well. got this gal from NYGH getting 395. i mean it's so SIAO la... haiz i havent even get 380 before... so SIANZZZZZZZ.

i wan to get 380!!!!!!! what is just holding me back???

anyway talk abt the scores. vanessa got 385. jinghuan got 376. keat yin got 370.

this is what we thought la... jinghuan should have scored much much higher. she can do it! but she juz dun wan to train more... haiz she wans to study, what can we do? but it's really damn ke xi la! shouldn't have lost deeeeeeee.

blame myself? for shooting so badly during the trials until i cannot get into the main team?

anyway juz recalled. the c gals did quite well too! karen got 373! it's very very good le! even though other schools did better la... but i believe it's her personal best! great job karen! jingting got 368 and felise got 357. it's nubbad too, it's the other schools tt r overperforming le! when i was in c div i tink i got 368 too. my preliminary round got 179! cried until like dunno wat lor.. haiz. it's all over. din even take part. stupid... did outsiders expect me to take part instead?

at first was quite ok already. until teddy raised this issue. den i got very worked up again. kenneth was quite annoyed. haiz. den he was like saying it's over already. is anyone going to cry that u r not taking part?

i kept telling myself that oh well juz accept it. u din do well, that's a fact! true, nobody is going to cry! maybe myself?

will the team do better if i were to shoot instead? it's hard to tell. haiz everything is so unpredictable.

anyway yongliang n cheeguan were quite sad when we found out that we din get east zone champion. i was quite sad too la... cos we always win them! they muz be so happy rite?

i was saying for the b boys all the powers have fallen. but sadly for gals event, we R a power to be reckoned with, and yes we have fallen. oh well it's time to reflect. why the other gals can do so well. and we cant.

nationals is finally over! it's time to pia for studies le! still have around 8 weeks left! wow it's... SO LITTLE! but nevertheless be late than never. put down air rifle first. when exams finish, it's time to pia air rifle again! next year is a div le!!!! i muz hit 380!!!! so that if i were to quit, i will be more gan1 yuan4...

from this, i kept telling myself that i muz grow up and learn something. i muz do reflection on what actually happened that i suddenly cannot shoot well. i guess the problem lies with.....


my mental.


i said before rite? shooting is 30% technics and 70% mental. so even if i have the technics, without the mental, i'll still lose!!!!! this sounds like the jue dui superstar hor? 70% votes and 30% judges score... lol.. haiz anyway back to my reflection.

i decided. i muz try to improve my mental. only then i can start to shoot well. i shouldn't keep brooding on the subject le. if 380 is fated to come, it will come. shall stop asking for it. maybe i juz cant make it when i TINK i can. i tink i have overestimated myself. i'm not as good as i tink i am. i am nothing. nothing. i need to work harder!!!!!!! work on my mental! technics can put aside la hor.. lol.. anyway muz work on my mental! hopefully i can then do better. next year's competition is super stiff la... have jasmine ser!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH very scared of her.. den next year most likely wun hav a team. den i have to compete as individual! OMG!!! got jasmine ser plus a lot of pro pro people. and not forgetting carol who got 395 today. haiz i tink i can forget abt getting nationals individual. aim for east zone one? but vjc got this gal very pro leh! n they use aluminium!!! omg.. but never mind. if i can do it, it wouldn't matter much rite? since universal is juz one grade below aluminium.

work harder!

work harder!

work harder!

in air rifle and studies!

put what u have learnt for this whole month into ur studies!!

persevere like what u did! determination!

STUDY HARD!!!

oh yes, we finally got the windbreakers!!!! YAY!!!!! my hard work! hahaha, cos i was the one liasing... sian i was very very scared that the windbreakers will end up wrong like the badges lor! but phew! everything went out ok. but still late by a day. haiz nationals started yesterday. but never mind today got more people going down cos c gals n b gals compete on the same day. hahaha very happy to see that many members do appreciate it! but there r people who dun of course. but good ting it's only minority!!! i was so scared that they will take the windbreakers n complain that it's very ugly den refuse to wear it. but yay! everything went out ok. then the person from the company praised me! haha she said i was very sharp, settled everything fast. haiya if not fast how to get the windbreakers in time! haha but if i have a lot of time i would still settle fast! i checked the email everyday u noe! lol.. of course fast la! happy happy happy abt the windbreakers! it looks very nice lor.. den it's like chee guan kenneth yongliang and me wore the windbreakers under the sun!!! omg it was so hot until i sweat like mad. haha but it was ok when we got on the bus to northpoint for lunch. so seh! the boys were so proud of the windbreakers lor.. they keep saying that they going to wear the windbreakers to act seh! hahaha... thanks for appreciating it! :)

hope the gals like it too! they din say much abt it though :(

oh ya talking abt yesterday. we ate kfc to celebrate! yongliang got 576! personal best! pro sia! den shaun got personal best 568 too! great job! den for derek, aiya very very ke xi lor... he got 563... cos he misfired a shot, forgot to put in the pellets.. haiz... all of us know that he can get 580 plus de la... den he was saying "he got a 0". den i heard wrongly that he got 580. den we were happy for nothing? lol haiya at least they still got nationals 3rd! me n chee guan were like jumping with joy when it's.. none of our business? haha but it's good that they win! bring glory! bring glory! since we lost so terribly last year. haiz! but sadly b gals n c gals din perform as well. maybe cos the others schs really did very well? even AISS din win first! nanyang got first! they r like SO PRO!!! siao one la. they trained a lot ba? den everyone got the good good suit and good good guns. haiz. we dun hav money. that's only what we can say.

tmr got chem prac! aiya maybe i shouldn't have gone down to support them on wednesday. cynthia was so sarcastic abt it. bet they thought that i used that reason to pon school ba? it's all her fault la! my mum said it seems that she wans to zheng3 me. but i rather believe that she juz wans to study. dun tink she's so scheming? console myself that i'm not that hateful? when sometimes i tink i am. haiz blame on my personality? i juz cannot stand people getting credit for doing nothing! when i'm doing a lot! it's juz so unfair. anyway should i go back to sch after the nationals tmr??? should i should i? but i really wanted to celebrate!!! anyway i oso din go for mrs ong's demo on wed.. haiz. will be very lost tmr ba? i feel very guilty towards mrs ong leh... should have gone for her lesson on wed since it's only 1st period! i only noe it at 7am! n my dad drove off to work liao! if not i would have juz rushed off to school de lor... sorry mrs ong!!!! blame it on the history source based! make me do until 4.30am. den still have training. i was so drained already la. din even bother to check the timetable. ok that's not an excuse. aiya sorry mrs ong!!!!! now she has to demo before i can do the practical on another day. sorry sorry sorry mrs ong!!! but i wouldn't mind staying back de. seriously cos it's my own fault. i devote too much to cca le ba? n i'm missing lessons for nothing! yikes. but it's yongliang, cheeguan n kenneth who are shooting! i mean we are a committee, we should support one another rite? yongliang went today to support b gals too. so should be ok ba? similary chee guan n kenneth went to safra today too... we all support each other ma! n our status is different too? need to go n oversee everything? but i did help out yesterday. shaun tot there will be water provided n he din bring his waterbottle. end up i rushed over to the 7 eleven to buy mineral water for him. haha almost got knocked down by car lor! lol. at least i did something useful ma.

i tink one of my greatest shou1 huo4 is knowing yongliang kenneth n chee guan better. we were like so detached during sec 1 n sec 2! guess being in the committee really makes us very united. so that we can work hard for the club to achieve greater heights! but it's really nice when the 4 of us sit down n start laughing together. it's a really nice experience! i mean they r really my frequency de lor! n i found out chee guan is really similar to me! haha cos same birthday ma... lol. it's really really nice to be friends with them. even though i'm always the only girl -.- haiz very extra la.. but really enjoy the company! without them i would feel very lost ba? den i would only have jinghuan as my friend! but she's not even my friend now. boo hoo.

tmr we are going kbox/movie to celebrate! n we intend to have qing4 gong1 yan4 next saturday! hope we can organise in time! den it will be so nice! really enjoy serving the club. maybe the juniors will feel that we r bossy. den we dun help with anything. actualy a lot of times i wanted to help. but i always have to wait for kenneth they all at the mrt until i become late for training. i always reach there extra early de lor. haiz sorry my juniors! i promise to help out more next time. i will i will. i wouldn't get influenced by them again! i will help out more de.

hope everyone likes the windbreakers!! n thanks to kosmos! the windbreakers were nicely done! yay!!! cheerios!

wish kenneth chee guan n alson very very good luck tmr!!! win nationals!!! den we can officially say "我们是靠男人吃饭的" lol sounds quite obscene.. haha but they were saying we rely on the gals for awards. but seems like we r relying on boys this year! which is very good!

i hope no one says anything bad behind my back. i noe for the past one month plus 我心里一直不平衡.

maybe u have heard what i have said. i admit they were hurtful. very in fact.

i apologise to u. no matter what we r still a team. i shouldn't be a sore loser. i concede defeat. all of us did well! it's the others schools that are overperforming!

hope all of u dun hav misunderstandings of me.. please put urself in my shoes can? i really din mean it.. i'm very hot-headed de.. i admit it myself. :(

sorry...

sorry...

sorry...